(Just a productivity update: Lucina's well under way, just coloring it and once that's finished I'll publish a rough-cut for Patreon!
Once thats finished I'm thinking of adding one last quick thing to the beginning before making it public on my channel! After that- Its Baby Dead time! Pokemon is still a ways off because I need to record things with a couple people first and am debating some recasts to the new material I have)
So this happened... Just this past week actually!
I had been seeing the sweetest girl, I ended up falling for her a little more than I anticipated and when the moment of truth came and I was so prepared to ask her to be my girlfriend... She hit me with the ol' one-two-BAIL before we even went out on the date.
All in all, this wasn't anything I wasn't prepared for...
I'd noticed she was distancing herself and I tried giving her the space she needed... I don't know, I thought that the obvious thing to do was to be MORE desperate for attention, but I seriously wanted to play it cool- 'cause I didn't want to lose her.
But that ended up happening anyway...
Lesson learned, you ain't special til there's a ring on it. You're not someone's main squeeze, you're never the only person they're seeing, fuckin, or even having feelings for.
There's ALWAYS going to be someone better, and whether they actually ARE or not, people are going to do what they're going to do and love who they're going to love anyway. And if you think you can change their mind, you're an idiot.
I'm that idiot- I insisted we go on the date anyway, jokingly saying "well I already got dressed so why not?" and she went with it... And it ended up just a whole 2 hours of apologizing and telling me how nice I am and that if it weren't for this other PERFECT gentleman, it would for sure have been me.
All lovely things to hear.
Its important to note I don't at all blame this girl in the slightest - she's a very kind, compassionate, and honest lady. Has terrible timing sure, but this definitely isn't on her. I'm the one who selfishly anticipated that we could have been a thing- so its only fair.
So all in all, this was a great learning experience. I'll never forget her- she hoped we could still be friends but my burnt asshole just isn't prepped up for that kind of pain...