Okay so, I’ve been thinking about this for a long while, and I feel that things have come together enough in my life that this is a step I need to take. I know that some of you may be frustrated and upset by my decision, but please understand that is this for my own wellbeing. I feel that I may be called out for being selfish, but I will list my reasoning, as well as what I plan to do in the next few months.
I am no longer going to accept commissions for artwork, at least until the considerable future.
Everyone who is currently waiting for a commission will receive a full refund as soon as possible.
My reasons for this decision are as follows:
- As you may know, my mental and physical health have been getting worse. It is too much for me to even get out of bed at times, never mind set up my tablet and draw. When I do make it to drawing, I am soon met with migraines and nausea, something I have experienced a lot more recently, and I still do not understand the reason why. Currently I am only able to work in 1-2 hour bursts before I am so exhausted I need to sleep.
- I have been taking commissions non-stop since 2004. That’s 14 years of commission work with no breaks. Although I have always been blessed to have people commissioning me, it has also taken its toll on my creativity. There are many projects I want to do that I simply can’t, due to my time being taken from commission work.
- I feel that it is unfair for you guys to have to wait such an awfully long time for my work. I try to work when I can, but sometimes a week or more can go by without any work. I know that if I was a client, I would get frustrated at the constant delays. By refunding you guys, I know that you will be able to commission someone else, or keep the money for something else.
- As much as I love serving the community and providing artwork of your lovely characters, I am mentally and creatively exhausted. This is mainly my own fault with not taking breaks, but a lot of it is also because I was forced to take commissions many times to pay bills, for food and other living expenses. This results in me not putting in the love and passion I could into the artwork.
The Future:
- I want to focus on spiritual art, my own characters and other subjects I have been wanting to draw.
- I want to study art fundamentals more and improve my current level.
- It is likely that I will take commissions in the future, but they may be more restricted; for example, YCHs only, certain themes and such.
- You will still be able to support my art via patreon, and also buy it through prints and such, if you want.
Refunds Etc
- I aim to refund everyone over the next few months. I will be able to start giving refunds around August 14th, and from there, every two weeks.
- I will struggle for money for a long while, I know this, but I feel this is important and something I must do. I am lucky that I am at least in a situation right now where I know I will not starve if I have no money.
I hope that you guys understand, and that you can see this is something I must do. Although I do love drawing for you guys, my creativity has died, I'm struggling mentally and I know I need to work on myself.
I hope you continue to support me as an artist, and that you are not too angry with me.
I will disable comments on this journal, but if you would like to contact me for any reason, please email me at neonpossumATgmail.com
Thank you so much for your understanding
- Neon