This Is Where I Want To Die
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This Is Where I Want To Die is a free utsuge visual novel developed and published by Marcel Weyers, an author and translator. The game was released on March 17, 2013 for Microsoft Windows, Mac OS, and Linux. An updated version was released on May 9, 2013. The Android version by Visualnovels.nl was released on July 5, 2013. In June 2014, Weyers released the game To Kill A Black Swan with similar themes, which is part of the same series.
Gameplay and design
The player reads through the story. Since the game is a so-called kinetic novel, the player does not make decisions and there is only one ending. The game uses silhouettes as characters and blurry black and white backgrounds. The protagonist, however, is not shown until the very end. Music and sound effects support the game's atmosphere.
A man wakes up in a hospital room and he realizes that he is about to die. He cannot remember what happened and he tries to think about why he is in the hospital. In order to do this, the player sees flashbacks from his past. The man was going to a bar with his best friend Ann and his boyfriend Brad. On the way to the bar, the man proposed to Brad and he accepted. To celebrate this occasion, they went to the most expensive bar in town. Brad explained that he wanted to take the man on a holiday to the sea. They enjoy the evening together. On the way back home the man says goodbye to Ann and decide to walk alone with Brad. The couple come across two men who attack them for no reason. At the end, one of the attackers stabbed the man and he bled to death. Back at the hospital, it is revealed that the protagonist is a homosexual man and the attackers killed him for trying to protect his boyfriend. As he dies, the man wishes he could have gone to the sea with Brad like they promised but is sure that one day they'll meet again. As Brad wraps his arms around him, the man flatlines and dies, thinking that being in Brad's arms is where he belongs with his final thought being "This is where I want to die." The message of the game is stopping homophobia.
Development and translations
The game was developed with Ren'Py, an engine for visual novels. The story and characters were developed by Marcel Weyers. The music was created by Marcel Weyers as well. The cover art was designed by SD Designs. Backgrounds, character art, and sound effects were taken from free sources and edited by Marcel Weyers. The game was created in less than a month. A trailer was released on March 10, 2013. It was released in English and German and was later translated into French by Kevin Cottenie and into Spanish by Nessy Noinex. A Dutch translation by Visualnovels.nl was added on May 28, 2013. On September 27, 2013, the game was updated with an Italian translation by Andrea Luciano 'Lehti' Damico. It is the third visual novel game by Marcel Weyers after Soulmates and Sleepless Night.
The official soundtrack was released on April 6, 2013, and includes four tracks at a total length of 1:37 minutes. On July 8, 2014, the soundtrack was also released on Bandcamp.
weeaboo.nl wrote about the game: "Not knowing who you are makes for a tiresome read (since you continuously need to take every possibility into account). Everything up until the final 30 seconds is just there for padding/misdirection."
freegamearchive gave a score of 66% and said: "Somebody writes his opinion into the newspapers, somebody writes a book, somebody shouts it on streets and one can make an interesting game. [...] The truth is uncovered rather soon and so the experience isn’t so enrichment. Someone can disagree with the uncovered thing and theme but it depends on what you think."
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- "This Is Where I Want To Die Soundtrack". Marcel Weyers. Retrieved April 22, 2013.
- "This Is Where I Want To Die". Bandcamp. Retrieved July 8, 2014.
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